More Anal

Sometimes I think I like it better in the arse.
Bear was fucking me missionary there, my legs on his shoulders. He hit something EPIC (I think I have a prostate sometimes) and I squirted the most ever all over his chest and pubic bone.
He came really loudly, and gasped sweatily, "You're SO good!"
That turned me on, loads.

Dirty

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Bath

You might not know this, but Bear has a thing about water.
He ran me a hot bath last night, as I've been ill. I was naked, and bent over swooshing more cold water into the hot. I felt his erection through his jeans on my bare arse and felt really flattered. He stroked it a while until I stepped into the bubbles.
His hand was tracing my thighs, and I shuddered. He looked puzzled, then said, 'aah'. And dipped a finger into my cunt. I was moaning, thinking that I'd be fine with just the thigh-stroking for a while, THEN this, but then that this was better, and then-that I've never been fingered in the bath before.
I reached up to feel his clothed erection, then pulled it out, stroking it as he stood next to the bath. It was veinier than usual, I noted.
I opened my mouth and looked at him, then sucked half of his cock, swirling my hand, lubed by warm water, down the rest.
I thought I felt pre-come on my lips fairly quickly, then realised he was in fact coming, and it usually takes a good while to make Bear come from oral, so I put his cock back inside my mouth and swallowed all he had to give.
I remarked on how quick it was, and he remarked that I 'look good in water'.

Fingers

Last night, I took four fingers, right up to the lower knuckle, before I cried out. Proud.
I struggled against Bear's fingers &felt like he was in my womb :)
He growled, 'I've wanted to fuck you for a while now..'
I ordered him to come.
This morning I wanked him off over my tits.

Crossed Out

Flirting until the act is hot.
Being up against his door in over-the-door restraints whilst wrapping my legs around his hips is hot.
Being strangled, my throat pressed down on whilst he towers above me, not knowing when he's going to stop and feeling like I'm gonna pass out in a good way is hot.
I kind of want to pass out and wake up to him doing disgusting things to me.
Him holding my hips and driving his cock sharply upwards is hot.
He's amazing.

You Could Be Mine

Yesterday I wanted sex, obviously. Bear's riposte was 'show me your tits.'
Soon we he has on top, me wrapping my legs around his hips digging my nails in his back for dear life. He spat in my mouth (mmm) and over my chest, rubbing it in. Couple this with licking my face, all over my cheeks.
Urging me to come, 'Come bitch come, come on my dick..'
Pushing my head down on his dick as he knelt up, then me sinking down on it. A ridiculous amount of orgasms.
When we'd returned from tea, just before bed, I blew him, thinking about three times he was going to come in my mouth..not being able to wait..Climbed on top and after coming twice shreiking how I wanted him to come inside me.
More of the same today, riding him after a lubey handjob, then him telling me he wanted me to put the anal beads up inside me. I was hesitant, then it felt amazing from on top.
I bent over for him, 'I want you to fuck me from behind, and I want you to treat me like a slut.'
Fucked me 'til I was squealing, then came into his hand and made me lick it out of his palm. Fucking DELICIOUS.
This afternoon I wanted more..He'd been squeezing my tits, telling me how they (and me) belonged to him, were his property, kissing me, flicking his tongue in my mouth, discussing oral..But he was too tired and needless to say I went home a horny Songs. I'm so glad I'm seeing him tomorrow!
And we have still not used our over-the-door cuffs.

Silly

I said I'd update more..then I didn't.
I've thought about closing this, because because of uni, I rarely see Bear and its really hard for me. But, its nice to have a record, and record those times we are together..
Yesterday I was feeling really sexy. Black lacy french underwear and a black bra with red ribbon trim under my clothes. Bear told me to take my pants off..he uses this as pre-sex words a lot now so I know whats coming..I did a lot of bending over whilst I sorted out music etc., I wanted to make the bed but he had other ideas..Rubbing the satin crotch of the panties as I was on all fours protesting, he said 'doesn't that feel good? I really want to fuck..'
He sat on the bed and I straddled him, in just bra and panties now, pushing tits in his face.
'You look so good..' he rarely says that, so I felt a rush of 'oooh!'
Soon I was on my back getting my nipples nibbled, my cunt licked and bitten through my underwear..I love getting touched THROUGH the underwear so I was wet..him fingering me, then me naked him stroking his dick in front of me, me whining for his cock. Him fucking me, pausing to squirt, all over his chest his face in his mouth.
He fucked me, growling for me, my legs curled around his hips and arse, him growling away telling me he likes the look in my eyes..I was screaming and he came inside me.
I was disappointed I couldn't have more..I wanted anal and to suck him until he came in my face but it was pretty late and he promised more the next day.
So today as he slept (he stayed at my house whilst I went to work) I put on a pink with white lace bra and matching thong and went to work. I usually hate thongs but am getting used to them..I think Bear likes enticing underwear so it makes me feel better.
After I'd returned from work and we'd been out to eat I was dying for sex..Luckily he stripped out of his jeans and told me he wanted to see my underwear. I stripped and put my be-thonged arseup against his boxers, feeling his erection.
'Are you doing this on purpose? This could make me come alone..'
'Yes' I said.
He lay down and I straddled him, he told me he liked the underwear. I asked him did he want a blowjob, and I've never known him turn one down.
I sucked for a while then came up for air.
'You know what I want to do? Suck you until you tell me I can fuck you, then fuck you, then swallow your come..'
He told me he hadn't said I could fuck him yet, and to keep sucking. After a while he said I could get on it, if I wanted. I said, 'desicions..' and kept sucking.
I caved after a few minutes, parted my thong and slid onto him. He told me the next time he saw me, he wanted to lead me around in my collar then tie me up. So if I go up there, I have to bring my collar to him. I want one at his house.
He told me to turn around, so we did a lot of reverse cowgirl. I felt his finger up my arse after a while and told him I wanted him to fuck me up the arse.
He got behind me and was really going for it, it was amazing.
'Do you want your vibrator too?'
I told him I loved him, he was so dirty.
'Vibrator or glass?'
I picked the glass dildo but it obviously isnt as soft as my vibe and was hurting him, so he carried on fucking my arse. He told me he wanted to come on my vibe and watch me use his come as lube. I thought that about the hottest thing ever, as we have white lube which I pretend I'm doing just that with-it seems so naughty.
I asked him to talk dirty to me.
'You slut, I don't have to talk dirty to you. Your arse is going to make me come..'
But he got tired and needed to shower. I asked could I blow him in the shower. That was really special, him face-fucking me, then wanking, looking at my face begging for it, my tongue out me whimpering. I love his taste.

I'm Back

That was a long break, wasn't it.
Sometimes blogging..Remembering the details of what I do with Bear..is intense, really hard for me to do. But the next time we fuck, I'll tell. I'll do better.
I have since taken my first experience of double penetration. He fucked me in the arse whilst fucking my cunt with my vibe.
He bought me a glass dildo, and I bought him special cuffs, so he can hang them over a door and we can fuck standing up.
This morning he slapped my face so hard I'm pretty sure my jaw went in two different directions.
I love him, I love him I do.
So, here's to better blogging.

Feelin' Dom

He has not felt particularly 'dom' in ages. I didn't know he was last night. We came back from partying, and I told him to go down on me. He kept asking, 'is that what you want?'..It was disturbing.
The head was great until he bit my cunt. He was very bitey last night. Thighs, cunt etc. When I'd came about twice, I whispered 'come here..'
He began talking really filthily, basically. It's been a while for that, too.
'I want you to make my dick and balls wet..I want you to come over my dick. How does it feel? Tell me how good my cock feels.'
I said, 'Did you like eating my cunt?'
'I loved it..do you want me to do it again, or do you want me to keep fucking you with my dick?' He grabbed my hand and put it over his dick as he slid in and out. 'Dont move your hand, and I want you to come on me..'
He was so demanding of me describing how he felt. I told him he's the best I've ever had.
'I wanna fuck you on the floor..face on the carpet, arse in the air..'
Okay, that turned me on. A lot. His fingers would wander to my arse but it felt sore, so I pulled away. 'Come here..' he'd growl.
'Do you want me to come in your throat?' He asked sitting up. 'Do you like the taste of my come? Put my dick to the back of your throat. Suck me, then ride me. I wanna use you to come.'
There was a lot of sucking and riding and I asked him 'Am I your comeslut?' He loved that. He was supposed to come in my throat but I was dying to watch him come..I pulled his hips towards me further.

Just

Just to record what went on last night. The house was empty, Bear and I were going out later. I asked if he wanted some. At first he declined, but when I moaned about needs (heh) he followed me upstairs whilst taking off my belt.
I rode him.
'You feel good. Do I feel good? I want you to be louder..'
So I asked him to fuck me. Unfortunately he came, but I told him I'd wanted to swallow it. About ten minutes later he was hard again, and pulled my panties aside (not off) to slide it in me. Then he told me to go swallow, so I made him come with my mouth.
After the party, we fucked on his friends couch :D I was in tshirt and underwear and he was getting excited. I rubbed him hard, sucked him then told him to fuck me. We spooned for ages, really energetically, and he came when he fucked me from behind.

So Happy Together

I had sex with Bear last week and didn't document it. Argh! Yesterday:
He was frustrated with my attention span and called me upstairs. I hoped it'd be for sex!
We lay next to each other and he slowly kissed me, then told me to stand up. I stood between his legs and he stripped me naked. He was clothed. He fingerfucked me, me standing. Then he told me to bend over. He continued to fingerfuck me until my cunt was spasming on his fingers, and I was gripping the headboard. The orgasms were mad intense. He told me to flip over and carried on. It was weird getting so much foreplay.
Then he stopped, stood and undid his trousers. I looked on nervously. He told me to 'Come here.' I sucked his cock for a few seconds before he pushed me backwards onto my back.
I wasn't wet enough to get fucked, but he knelt over me naked.
'Lube!' I begged.
'What?,' He taunted. 'I'm not going in you!'
But of course he pushed into me. Fucked me hard. Legs pushed apart, up on his neck, around his back. He came but didn't tell me. I resent when he does that, but sex is about him.
This morning I wanted to fuck before I left. I didn't think he'd want to fuck in his mothers bed where we were sleeping, but he did. It was weirdly kinky to me. I slicked lube onto him and rode him. He felt rockhard. I snuck peeps in the mirrored wardrobes. Such a voyeur.
He didn't seem that 'into' it though, but he said he was tired. Bah.

Stitches

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Two Weeks Later

Two weeks since I last fucked him, so I was relieved.
I had it in my head that I was going to blow him then crawl into his lap. He wasn't having any of it.
I stripped him naked, me to my underwear and blew him as I knelt on the floor and he sat at the edge of my bed. He would pull out to suck my nipples, bite my neck,take my underwear off and put his fingers in my cunt. But then straight back onto his cock. It felt good kissing him.
He pulled me up by my hair and pushed me onto the bed, forcing his way in. It felt insane, the head of his cock teasing the entrance to my cunt. He fucked me roughly, making me shake.
'Can I get lube please?' I asked.
He looked like he was thinking about it. 'I want to hear you beg more.'
I bit my lip as he fucked me. 'Please, please please let me get lube!'
I reached for it and lubed him up, then he was straight back inside me, holding my legs open and plunging. Eventually he said, 'Get on top.'
I rode him to multiple climaxes, hard. 'How do you want to come?' I asked.
'All over you..And I want you to lick it up.'
'What do you want?'
'Keep riding it..'
But eventually I asked him to stand whilst I lay on the bed and he fucked me that way. Eventually he said he was going to come, so pulled out and came on my stomach.
I sucked the come off his cock and wiped myself down with my hand, sucking it off my fingers. He looked impressed with that.
Later I was resting my leg on his inner thigh and craftily started blowing him. It was lovely, soft and wet and slow with him fucking my throat..He started to fuck my asshole with his fingers and so sex and then anal danced before my eyes, but he told me he was going to come.
'No...' I said.
'I can't hold..'
So I swallowed everything he pumped down my throat.
Stupid high drive..I wanted him later and tried to suck him, but he wasn't having any of it.
Wish I didn't want him so much.

Making Love

I hate that Bear's work prevents me from seeing him often.
When the sex came up..He told me to stand before him and undressed me slowly..Longingly..He makes a very 'wanting' noise that deeply turns me on.
He got onto his knees as he pushed me onto the bed to give me soft oral..I could hear him removing his jeans and when he stood I was met with a huge erection. He fucked me, him standing me lying down, and then me on top. I told him how amazing he looks naked, how beautiful he is. I love to watch him come.
But..I have made love. I have never really done this before. I've fucked and I've had sex..I've had slow sex with an ex but it felt so..Staged.
Bear slid liquid on top of me and was gently inside me. He looked at me in a way that something really special was happening..That *I* was special..Kissed my face and my neck gently, nuzzled his face into mine as we breathed together. Held each other. We kept slowly moving together for a long time..It was so, so special and beautiful. I felt so deeply in love. I'm suprised I was so moved, I've always been of the 'let's fuck!' school.
This morning we fucked from behind and him on top..Trying to hold onto his orgasm..He is so, thoroughly amazing.
My 'drive' is becoming a bit of an issue though. I want to fuck him constantly and obviously, he can't. Not so soon after, anyway. I constantly want him.

Upsidedown

We were having a conversation about truth. He was naked, I was fully dressed.
"I would prefer for you to be honest with me about everything, even if I hated what you were doing" I said.
"Alright," He said. "Well can I be honest with you right now? I want you to sit on my face."
I giggled and said no. He told me he wanted to see my arse in the thong I was wearing (I rarely wear thongs.) he told me to suck his cock and bend right over him so he could see my arse. I sucked, and he was trying to lick my arsehole. I giggled and pulled away from him, setting myself between his legs.
"I want you to get on it and just ride me until I come..take these off" He said, indicating my underwear. I continued to suck whilst I struggled with my clothes, then sank down on top of him.
"Oh, you're wet.." He smiled.
We fucked like that for a while until he told me he wanted me to sit on his face. He wanted me to squirt on his face again. I couldn't sit on his face comfortably, so I pulled off him and sat at the edge of the bed with my legs akimbo and told him to come get me that way. I squirted all over his face and asked him why he liked it.
"Because I know you like it too.." He smiled. He was basically fucking me upside down..My legs were pulled up over his shoulders and he was 'aiming' down, half my body off the bed. I almost wanted to put my palms on the floor!
I asked him where he wanted to come. "All over you.." He smiled. My EXACT thought. And he did.
This morning we were arguing somewhat, and what eases tension? I stroked his cock, listened to his sounds as he enjoyed it. Then I was sucking it. He told me to get on his dick.
"Lube..." I protested.
He pushed my head down on his cock. "There's your lube." He snarled. Rough fingers on my cunt. I wasn't getting wet. He told me to get on. Wouldn't have it that I wanted lube.
He felt amazing, so hard..I rode him, pinning his arms. Out came the switch me.
"Do you like that?" I grinned. He continued to groan. I grabbed his neck. "Tell me you like it!"
He grinned. "I do."
I got an urge to slap him (now regretted!) and with permission, did. It was hot at the time, for an odd reason. I do not know why.
He came calling my name. I think he's used to me loving it.

Amazing

Had some of the most amazing sex of my life last night.
We were at a friends' bands gig, and Bear started off stroking my hair, which I LOVE. I gave little shivers of delight. Next he trailed down my stomach and put a hand in my underwear-all in the club with my best friend sat next to me. Stroking and rubbing my pubic bone the way I do when I wank. I was shivering. His eager fingers slid lower and my wetness flowed onto his fingers. I put my handbag over my crotch but am pretty sure my friend knew what we were up to! I was so close the whole time, but then we had to leave to go home.
We were staying at said friends, and could have hung out talking but I wanted to fuck Bear. We ran upstairs. He went to the toilet and I got undressed to my underwear, my panties still very wet. He came back, undressed to his boxers and slid into bed.
He leant over me and we started to make out-gorgeous. I still don't think we kiss enough during sex (and hearing 'I love you' during has become a huge turnon, for some reason..)
I commented, "You taste like biscuits." (Ha had been eating them) giggled, "Was that hot?"
"Not particularly. But I want to lick your cunt-is that?"
I gasped and nodded. "No objections then?" He grinned, sliding down my body. He drew my underwear aside but didn't take it off, and full on stuck his tongue inside my cunt, for what it felt like. He alternated hard licks of my cunt with nibbling my nipples-he'd pulled the cups down from my breasts but not removed the bra from my body. I tried, and he sharply told me to "Leave it." I groaned that he was so sexy.
I was trying to wriggle away from my underwear alongside riding his face. He looked up.
"No..I want you to be dripping wet before I even THINK about putting it in, do you understand that?"
But I was. And he slowly took off his boxers and knelt up, slowly stroking himself. THAT was too much. Hot. I tried to touch myself but he removed my hand and carried on stroking himself. I whined.
Eventually he sloooowly slid inside me-he felt so rock hard. My underwear was still on the top of my thighs, which was frustrating, but Bear was obviously trapping me.
"Does my dick feel good?" He crooned.
I wrapped my legs all around him but when I get to the point of full-on squirting, I have to push him away. I did, and he placed his face in front of my stream. I felt REALLY bad, but couldn't exactly stop.
He came up coated in my liquids, even dripping from his hair. He pushed back inside me and the occasional drop landed on me. I was so, so close. I tried to tug on his pelvis.
He laughed at me. "You want me to go faster, don't you? And fuck you hard. Well no, not yet.."
Frustrating, SUCH a tease. But the slow pulling out and sliding in-his entire shaft-felt amazing.
"Tell me when you're gonna squirt again okay..I want it in my face again, I know you liked it.."
I gasped. "I don't think I will again, I've lost too much.."
He increased the pressure on my cunt and suddenly I changed my mind. I came over his face again.
He began to lean back slightly so I sat up. He pulled off my underwear. We tried different varities of me on top, like the both of us in a sort of crab position, thrusting forward. Then I was on top in the traditional sense, pinning his arms. He grinned and told me my cunt felt good. Then he said he wanted to bend me over and spank me. I was worried about my friends in the next room but I suppose we were already making so much noise.
I bent over the bed and he slapped me, then slid into me. God, it was amazing. My orgasms were weakening my knees and after two more I flipped over so he was fucking me missionary again.
"I want you to come in my mouth" I told him.
"Just where I want to come.." He smiled.
He fucked me..I told him he was fucking me raw, he was with-holding so well..I was losing too much wetness but he wouldn't let me get any lube.
"Do you wanna swallow my come?"
"Yeah I want your come in my throat like a dirty bitch!" (See how I get caught up in the moment?)
"Come here" He grabbed my hair and pulled me forward, wanking into my mouth. But after a few minutes it was clear he wasn't coming.
"You're ages off!" I giggled. "You're tired, do you wanna lie down and I'll suck your dick?"
He lay and I sucked him for a while.
"I wanna lick your ass. Get into the position." He said. So clear about what he wants!
We got into the '69' position and He lapped away whilst I attended to his cock. He put a finger to my asshole-he'd actually been doing this all through sex, and I'd been whining and pulling away. He'd humoured me at first, but now his finger slipped in. Amazing. I lost all worry. After a while of him alternating finger and tongue on my arse I said "I want your dick in my arse."
"You want me to fuck this?" He asked and told me to get the condom from his wallet. "Put it on," He said. "I'm making sure you're lubed."
He lapped away..I was worried about not using actual lube, but I suppose I'd been 'loosened' somewhat by the fingerfucking.
It took a while to slide in, but GOD I forget how fucking amazing anal is. I was making really animalistic sounds.
"Do you wanna come in my arse now?" I asked.
He said yes and continued to fuck me..Rougher than you should an arse relatively un-used to anal, but GOD, hotness.
I was coming freely and easily as I usually do from anal. He told me he was going to come and I asked him to say my name.
Really, really delicious. Experimental and he did EVERYTHING right. Mmmm.

I Hate Not Seeing Him

It was seven or eight days since I'd seen Bear, because he was back home and I wasn't. I got back Saturday.
When I went round..He looked beautiful, well worth the wait. Kissing him just..does things to my genitals.
I pulled off his top and bit at his nipples whilst I took his pants off, then slid down to suck his cock. I missed it. I told him I missed his moans.
"Enough," He said. "I wanna fuck you now."
He undressed me and I lay on my back. God, it was delicious. I said, "Did you miss fucking me?"
"I missed everything about you.."
He came inside me, stayed inside and continued, coming again later. Amazing.
Later I fucked him with me on top. God, I love him.
A brief update, but all the same..

Japanese Rope Bondage

Guess what? We ended up getting a cane.
There's a sexshop around the corner from me I wanted to take him to..He ended up buying us some japanese rope bondage stuff and a cane attatched to a leather handle. It's bamboo and it looks painful. There WAS a proper 'cane' but he said he'd snap it and it wasn't as smooth..I do not want splinters in my arse. I got hold of some seamed tights. Seams are the yum.
After eating I decided I wanted to try on the latex stockings I bought the other week. I've never worn latex before, just pvc. They were difficult to get on, like putting my leg in a condom. There was an airbubble in the foot so I had to start again, and got talc all over the floor. *Sigh*
When I finally got them on, they fitted in the calves but were baggy on the thighs, like waders. Disappointing. I need a suspender belt. MORE money. Still, they look great with fetish shoes and beautiful all shined up.
I was sat in my girlboxers getting them on, though. Bear growled at me and took out his cock, rubbing against my crotch. I just wanted to try them on before anything sexual.
'Wait..' I said, offhand.
He pushed me over to slap my arse but I spun round to avoid it. He grabbed my face.
'Wait for what?' He asked.
I just looked at him. He slapped me.
'I asked you a question, AND you don't avoid it when I want to slap you.'
'Nothing..' I wailed.
He pulled my hair and snapped at me to get them on. But putting them on, he seemed to calm.
He is quite sadistic with that cane, though. I knew he would be. I already hate it. He just tells me it 'doesn't hurt'. I said to let me hit him with it, and he laughed and said he wasn't stupid.
Later, we were innocently just trying the various knots we could do with the japanese rope (it has clever adjustable restraints, too, quite handy.) and having myself in his hands was getting me quite excited.
I ended up my back to the wall, rope under my parted knees, cuffs cuffing my hands far apart. I couldn't really move. Bear bit his lip and started to stroke his cock looking at me. I whined.
I was really turned on but I wasn't getting wet. He was trying to force it into me but mercifully eventually got lube. I couldn't move well, and he was fucking me, pulling at the ropes to make it tighter. He stopped and told me it was time for the handcuffs. I wondered where, but when he snapped them on me I was even more unable to move-he'd intertwined them in the rope, basically. I was screwed.
'I am going to do something now, and you better enjoy it, or I won't be happy.'
He blindfolded me and I whined. I hate being blindfolded because I can't see Bear and obviously I love looking at him. That and I have no clue whats coming to me.
He mocked me. 'What, you want me to take all this off you?'
'I trust you..' I panted.
I could hear him scrabbling around in my drawer and tensed. Then there was something hard against the entrance of my cunt. He turned it on-my vibrator.
I was wide open and getting dripping wet against it but he wouldn't penetrate me with it. I needed it deep inside me. I tried to struggle against it.
This obviously excited him and he stuck his cock back inside me. I felt the vibe against my face and laughed-but he put it into my mouth. I hated my taste. He probably liked seeing me suck a cock. It stopped.
He felt amazing. I was whining, He was relentless, not coming.
'You're making my cock very happy. You know I'm going to come on your cunt, don't you? I'm gonna come all over your dirty little hole.'
I whined. He'd never come ON my cunt before but I'd fantasised. He didn't come for a while though. I was exhausted, willing him to. Eventually he pulled out and covered it.
A few minutes later I was stood up talking to him.
'Stare at my cock!' He barked.
I was taken aback but did it for a few seconds before my eyes trailed to his face. He indicated with a nod to carry on. After about a minute, 'Lick it.'
I got on my knees and lapped, thinking niavely that he wouldn't become hard. He was 'mmmming' and telling me about the sensation. I didn't dare take him into my mouth or touch his side, as I normally would. He scolded me for having my HAND on it. He was getting hard.
'Balls' he ordered. 'You may nibble but not a lot.'
After a few minutes of that, 'I'm bored. Suck my cock.' I began. 'Slowly!' He snapped.
It was delicious. He told me he wanted to come in my mouth. I moaned.
'Do you like sucking my cock? Licking my balls? Do you WANT me to come in your mouth?'-Not questions for my pleasure, reminding me of my whore-ness.
He then decided he'd come on my face, which I love. He stroked himself looking at me, then as he was coming, forced my head back until I thought it would surely snap off. He wiped it on my cheeks, lips, forehead, and snapped at me to get cleaned up.
After those two times, I was feeling really vunerable, which never happens to me. I felt really weak and in need of affection. He said it was because I knew he could take care of me. I gripped onto him all I could.
Today he was carrying the cane and mocked my walking. 'Come on, quick steps!' He said, wafting it at me.
'I'm not your pony..' I said.
'You WILL be.' He smiled, referring to my curiousity at ponyplay. (At least the tail buttplugs!)
And later called me his dirty little slut. *Sigh*

Watersports

Well, we had a big talk. Again.
The comments he made about women online hurt me, but he made the point, 'X, *I* linked you to that website, why would I if I felt it was wrong?'
So we discussed comprimise and he said he won't again. So we'll see. I, meanwhile, feel better. As much as I need verbal deprivation, verbal humiliation, I also like to hear that he loves me, which he says often now without prompt.
Last night I was detirmined not to give him sex, just feeling a little 'off' about my body, seeing that he'd complimented others, etc. But we began to play strip scrabble, I was in my underwear and he was fully dressed, clearly winning. It frustrated me so he let me stop.
But all his suggestions and touching made me aroused. As he said to me when I whined that I was detirmined not to give him any sex, 'If I want it enough X, I'll persist.'
I told him I was thinking about sucking his cock, and did.
Then we made out, hard, his hand in my hair, holding onto a clump, wrapped around his fingers. He pulled it for nothing, pulled my head back to bite my neck, pushed my head down onto his cock. Pushing my head up and down. I was gagging. I tried to get onto his cock.
'Do you want it inside you?'
I nodded.
'Suck my cock until I say you can get on it. Put my cock to the back of your throat until I say.'
I was feeling a bit naseous that night however, and I tried to keep it in back but felt like I was going to vomit. He told me to get on it. He was solid.
'You know, you're LUCKY I even let you on this cock. You're unworthy, you're nothing. That's right, my cock feels good, doesn't it? God, why haven't you made me come yet? Try harder. You piece of shit, you slut.'
Constant snarling. He'd never called me a 'piece of shit' before. I came over his dick, and he told me to go down and lick it up. I hate my taste.
When he allowed me to come back, he told me to make sure he comes this time.
'You know I'm only fucking you to come, don't you? I don't give a shit about your enjoyment.'
I was coming hard from all the degredation, and he eventually came but didn't tell me. I knew when he said 'Okay, you can kiss me now.' (He dislikes when I try to kiss him during his more 'dominant' times a lot, and I was told off for trying during this session.)
And later, before we showered, he pissed on me for the first time. He's only ever pissed in my mouth. I LOVED it.
I sat in the shower and he just let rip. It bounced off my chest and hit my face, my hair..It just felt so ultimately humiliating.
It's not something I thought I WOULD have enjoyed, but I did, thoroughly.
This morning we fucked again and I love how he just seems to sense where to put his dick to make it feel amazing. Hammering my gspot.
'I think you should come on me..'
'Me too.'